I was contemplating what God wanted me to write about this morning.
Writing is my therapy, but what does God want me to write about?
Wynford staff treat their guests like family; they provide good, wholesome meals; teas and cookies under the thatch lapa of the summer house and clean, comfortable rooms. There is no cellphone signal in the area which makes it even more appealing - no disturbances at all. Instead, it's a weekend to enjoy God's beautiful creation, or to sit quietly in the chapel and take in the view of the majestic mountains.
"This reminds me so much of Psalm 23...'walking beside the still waters'," I said. "Have you considered the part where it says,' He MAKES me lie down... to RESTORE my soul'?"
"That's interesting..., " was the response. "I never thought of it that way. But its probably true. There are times where God FORCES us to take a rest."
How ironic! Four days later I was struck down with Bell's palsy.
There's not much one can do about the effects of an attack like Bell's Palsy except to accept the blows as they arrive. You are left with a paralyzed face, an eye that refuses to shut, a tongue that does its own thing, a nostril that won't flare and an ugly frozen expression that refuses to budge. The only positive option is to focus on adapting to one's 'new normal'. It's time to learn how to eat, drink, talk, blink, live...in a whole new way. One reaches for anything that offers the possibility of relief. Often, nothing works. Instead, I have had to resort to simply lying down and surrendering into the company of God. It's time to pray for the people I care about and to meditate
Yes, God is certainly MAKING me lie down! And something inside of me says , 'It is right'. I have the honest hope of restoration; the love of friends; a Christian family that is far wider than I ever thought, and the all-important opportunity of embracing God's glory amidst my affliction. Without the Lord by my side, I would most certainly be a mess - crumbling like a leaf in the clutches of winter.
But its not that way at all. Although the paralyses is unchanged, the birds sounded brighter this morning. I made muffins too - to give to friends and I'm looking forward to my REST during the day. It's obvious that I am being instructed to take it easy.
I pray that God draws close to you to, dear reader. That you too are able to surrender into His loving arms. Allow Him to deal with whatever is troubling you - in the full knowledge that "He has got this!". May you also find the true meaning of the gift that is offered by our amazing Lord Jesus Christ. My prayers are with you at this time.
Have a wonderful, happy and blessed weekend. With love, Caryl