Who am I, Lord, to be of any use to you?
In Your eyes, I feel smaller than a speck of dust…
I am but a blink in your glorious plan…
Your mystery and my purpose are hard to fathom…
I am humbled…
Your presence in me is unmistakable; glued to my inner
being;
I feel it when the sun rises and when it sets.
It reassures and frightens simultaneously. I cannot deny it,
but my boldness is fleeting.
Your Word tells of your greater plan; a vineyard where I
might belong.
It calls on my willingness simply to obey: Without question;
Without doubt.
That is scary, Lord…
I am Your creation, Father; a simple being in this vast, living
universe.
Like a soldier, I am called to faithfully serve; to use my whole being in
honour of Your incredible love.
Despite my unworthiness, my doubt, my disobedience and my
failings, I am compelled to claim Your name. My love for You is growing, slowly…freely
It is Your immense love that sustains me. And the knowledge that I have been
deemed worthy to receive Your gift of faith; to believe the almost
unbelievable, to accept Your message…willingly. I am a new creation; washed clean and
acceptable in Your eyes. You called me and met me, Lord. I am Yours.
Incomprehensible…
Now that I’m Yours, Father, Your care for me is patient. You
are kind and generous and You are gentle in my weakness.
Your love eludes my understanding, Father. I yearn for it
when I doubt it. It enfolds me when I least expect it. Yet, Your Counsellor
reassures me; never leaves me – the incredible gift you promised.
Thank you Father for making me part of Your plan.
